Trusting God

I realized that I had hardly posted in October at all which means I had failed to include anything on my blog about the work that God is doing in our lives right now. I guess I should start from the beginning, though I know most of you that read my blog already know the whole story.

Our daughter Maleigha was born with a small dimple above her bottom. The first time I saw it I didn't think it was anything to be alarmed about...I wasn't even sure if it was that abnormal (I haven't really looked at that many bottoms..hehe). But when every doctor and nurse that came into the room said something about it, I began to realize that it might be a little more serious. They told us to keep an eye on it--make sure no fluid was coming out of it, it didn't get bigger, etc. And we left the hospital not really hearing another thing about it.

It wasn't until her 2 month check-up that they decided to look into it a little more. She was scheduled for an ultra-sound (this test was the most tramatic for all of us. I ended up having to hold Mia down for 15 minutes while she screamed until her face was red and she was covered in sweat, drool and snot) and when that seemed to show signs of a condition called tethered cord (where some fibers from the spinal cord attach to the tail bone) they proceeded to do an MRI. This included making a 2 month old baby fast for almost 6 hours. We thought this would be a much bigger ordeal than the ultrasound but it went smoothly. We definitely felt the prayers of our family and church. We got the results the next morning and found out that she indeed had tethered cord and would require surgery on her spine to repair it.

We are now at the point where we are simply trusting God and waiting for answers. We found out today that they won't do this surgery on children under the age of 2. We were frustrated because we thought they would need to do surgery right away. We had planned on moving at the end of this month and had decided not to so that Mia could get her surgery here...but after finding out we would be waiting over a year, we have started looking harder for a job for David in Ohio and researching the neurosurgical department at Children's hospital in Columbus.

I'm learning to trust God in new ways. We had our life planned out for the next few months and God had a different plan. And just when I became okay with the new plan, God threw us for another loop and we are back to having to take it one day at a time and not really knowing what the future holds, trusting God with every step. Though I know this is the way I should be living my life anyway, it still feels so scary. I know when we come through this I will see all that God has taught us and done for us but right now I feel like I can't even see my hand in front of my face. Please pray for our family, that we would trust God and lean on Him only. He has brought us this far and I know He will lead us through this as well.